I didn't have an AT lesson for a while. Today I had my first session with Michelle C, she trained with W & D Carrington at the Constructive Teaching Centre. Yes, I began to establish links with the school.
The lesson was really good and was lead in the way that works for me just fine. On the days like this I prefer to work quietly, but with the natural space for mutual feedback.
On my way to the lesson and before I noticed that I was having all sorts of expectations about it. But to expect means to be fixed, so I decided to let go of that and to pay attention to the process and what is happening in the moment instead.
The first half of the lesson was the chair work. Very gentle walk through the areas of tensions. 'Simply being present to them' was mentioned. Well, in this context, that is being supported by the teacher and being more awake it is somehow easier to refrain from reacting.
The second half was the table work. At one point I noticed that I started daydreaming about something related to my job, something that pushed 'the worrying' button in me. Few seconds later M swiftly moved back to my head/neck to give it some directions. I later asked her if she noticed that I started daydreaming, and she said that she experienced 'disconnection'.
I happily complete the lesson and make an arrangement for the next week. Then walk back home. The lesson continues for me - I am connected with the Technique. This shall inevitably pass, but I am enjoying it while it lasts and attempt to make good use of what is available. The process keeps unfolding...
I go shopping and notice that I enjoy simply being in the moment, being more myself than I am usually able to. I am collected.
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